Writing it out!!!

I swear some people just get on my nerves I have a girl at work who tries to be our supervisor. I don’t like the way she acts everything I say she rolls her eyes at. In our work chat its like the least thing I say that is not work related she is calling me on it. If I try to be civilized she won’t even acknowledge me. I mean she is older than me, but she acts like an 11 year old. I mean really its WORK not the PLAYGROUND!

I love how the person you still have feelings for thinks it is okay to tell you about their sex life. I mean I told them straight up that I still liked them. But he still feels the need to tell me he is having sex with other girls. I mean what guy in his right mind does that. When I mentioned something about us getting back together, He told me he was still in love with his ex and wanted to see where things went there. Then he told me that if that didn’t work out we could try again. I was sitting there like uh no. Because why would I want to be anyone’s second choice.

Kimmy I mean seriously. I know that you have not had the common decency to not text me to let me know what’s going on, but my mom really? I mean its bad enough that you went behind my back and tried to get the tattoo done. But you could have had some manners and texted my mom, like you said you would, and let her know if you weren’t going to get it. I mean seriously that’s kind of messed up. I mean I love you and I think I have been a real good friend to you. Even though YOU don’t think I have been one I have been. Because that time that I stopped talking to you was because you was using me. Every time I came over it was you got any money? Or let’s go somewhere then when we got there you wanted to eat. I mean I didn’t mind doing it every now and again, but just about every time I came over you asked. I was tired of being used and plus I also started working more around that time as well. I mean I really try to be your friend but there are just certain things that a girl can take. I am not trying to be mean I am just expressing my feelings because I have had issues with this and as a friend I feel you should know this.

Samantha girl I love you like a sister and I will do anything for you. This is why I am writing you this letter. I feel that there are issues that I have had with you that I need to tell you. So maybe we can work this out and keep our friendship stronger. I mean I know that you have been through a lot recently with no job and bills and things. But I’m having trouble figuring out why you didn’t accept my offer for me taking you to the interview. I mean if I was in your situation I would have been like heck yes come get me. I mean if there is anything else going on you can let me know I mean we are friends that’s what I’m here for. I mean I did have a big issue with what happened when you came to visit me and you didn’t take up for me to your mom. I mean I feel I have been a good friend and if there is something I have done let me know because I really really want to know. This is what the letter is for I’m trying to become a better person and  I want to start with my friends and try to get our relationship back on the track it should be on. I mean I know your mom and sister don’t like me and I’m okay with that. Just as long as when they are talking bad about I need you as a friend to tell them you don’t want to hear it or a no she IS a good friend to me. Other than that I really don’t have any other issues with you.

I think it’s hilarious all these immature people who think it’s funny to make comments about my weight. I mean they acting like there pointing something new out to me. I mean HELLOOOO I can see myself in the mirror I know I ain’t anorexic. Beside I am not as big as some , but yes I AM FLUFFY!!!! I really don’t care what they think I just think it’s funny. I mean if you don’t like it don’t look ,but of course they look and feel the need to comment. But it’s okay because I can lose my weight you however those people will always be a jackasses that nobody likes.

Okay to put it plain and simple i need a man!. Not figuratve like i need one now, just if im gonna date someone i don’t want a boy i want a man. I mean I ike a guy who knows where he is going in life, but he doesn’t have to be overly prepared. I want a guy that knows he is gonna go from point a to point b, but he don’t have every single little detailede planned out. I need someone who i feel protected around. I want to be able not to have a dull moment around the guy and we could talk for hours if we wanted. I don’t want to feel like I’m stupid, i mean i don’t mind having something explained to me. But when it gets to the point that your saying it over and over like im dumb then we got a problem. I mean i have to have someone who likes me for me and doesn’t want to change that. Yeah im a big girl and if i want to change that thats up to me not you. I need a guy who know how to be romantic and can surprise me with it. Not them doing it because i say they need to do it. I mean i do’t want to be waited on hand and foot, but romance evry now and again is okay. I really want a guy to actually take his time to find out my actions fo instance. If i slam the door give me a few minutes before you come in there, but if i walk away mad, but i don’t slam the door you better be in there quick. I also hate it when guys are smartasses ALL THE TIME. Alittle now and here is okay but not all the time. Also i need a guy who knows when im joking and doesn’t take everything serious.

Things, guys, or actions that turn me onto a guy:

If they drive a truck

if they sing

if they have tattoos

if they are country

if they look me in the eyes and when i ask what they say nothing and then something sweet afterward

i like guys who if need to can head bang

who have a cocky cofindence, but they are cocky at all

short hair guys

guys who actually take thier time to look nice

Things that I do that can make or break the relationship:

I get aggrivated very easily

im bitchy

if things dont go my way i am pissed

i hate stupidity in people

                          I don’t like it when objects get more attention than me

I am tired of the bullcrap. My mom had called me asking me to go play bingo. Told me she would call me when to tell me when they was going. Well i called her and find out they already left. She then asked me did i want to go, and i was like yeah you asked me. and she was like well you said you didn’t have no money. But she went with my step bro and his gf. I mean idk how many times i have spoke to her and shes always spending time with them. I mean seriously if you like them better than me then FUCK YOU!